Standing Still While Speeding
My life is hurdling by, at a rate that is most typical. (at least to a young family with two kids and two on the way)
Long days that push my strength limits.
Longer nights that pull at my eye lids.
Fast weeks that provide much change or little change at all.
Motor months that feel like a splash of yearly repeated Holidays.
Blink-able years.
So yes, I do try and take it all in, blink by blink it goes on. All the while trying to figure out what “it all” really is anyway.
I would like to remember the endless knock-knock jokes, the ou-wies shown with pride, the yelling, the cuddling, the everything the “it all” means.
I would like to remember the feeling of being held by a loving God during laundry mountains, financial pressures, morning sickness, and sibling issues in my children and this-house-is-too-small agreements with my beloved Neat Pete.
Things will be different. Places will change. Priorities will shift.
My naturally brunette hair will be a distant memory.
My desire for alone time will be met and feel incredibly quiet.
My heart will be consumed as I balance my time taking care of my grand babies and aging parents.
But while I can, I embrace the moment {Just a blink. Just a breath. Just a stitch.} knowing I am living in tomorrow’s memories.
It’s amazing what a neighborhood drainage ditch can be to anyone with an imagination.
Love,
Messy Jessy
PS The twins are at 14 weeks and I am starting to turn a corner in my all-day sickness. yes! Though I am continuing my Unisom and B6 treatment for now. Thanks for those of you that inquired! 
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Hi Jess!
I’m currently perusing my friends’ blogs instead of working – don’t tell the school board! I really only had time to take a quick glance, but I’m glad to hear that you’re feeling a little better. I love the picture of your family all dressed in white and I really love the one of Ryan going down the slide – you should be a photographer . . .
Love,
Sue
Hey Jess! Haven’t checked your blog since your latest pregnancy news and now you are having two! Amazing! I pray you are feeling better. I hate those queezy first months more than the huge last months. I’m absolutely thrilled for your family. Natalie Albers just had twin boys so perhaps she’ll have some great insight for you. Can’t wait to hear more about your progress. God bless you girl! Email me….I’d love to help in anyway I can. I mean it.